My best friend Luci died in January of cancer. She was 18 and two months. I think about her all the time and poetry is a really good way to try to get across how it really feels for me.

I try really hard to articulate the feelings of being so close to someone who has cancer because im sure many of you would know that when someone you love has cancer you feel like you have it too.

You feel every hit of chemo, you cry every tear, you take every bit of news with the same painful blow. At least we have each other and don't have to go through it alone like some of the kids i saw in the chemo ward with no friends around.

Anyway Luc died in summer and this was written two days before her stroke which was caused by the cancer and killed her in less than a week. So this is the best i can say of how it feels to be right in the middle of the swirling, whirling, head turning chaos of cancer.
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